Daddy dis hard
What if the embryo can talk
And he’s a drag queen and he’s a performer
What if sperm has been doing competition dance for eight years
What if the balloon delivery guy is really good at cheerleading
What if all trolls are also your therapist and your therapist is trolling you and she’s hot and authoritative
Category: Responding
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Responding to Ashley R.T. Yergens at New York Live Arts
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Responding to Pep Talk (Marin Day and Maddie Hopfield) at Kestrels
Friends in the blue
Tracing where they’ve been
what they cut out
what they took from each otherWhen it hurt
When it hit
When it sweat with good
When the sweat laughedSleeping side by side
Early or late going and running
Dreaming side by side
Running a late dream
Only you could keep up -
Responding to Stacy Grossfield at The Chocolate Factory
there she is in her hardened shell of whiteness
of you can do it if you just tried
of calling it murder
is she bleeding or leaking?
dragging around her future, fighting age
little naked imp plays alone, but with herself as a first friend
the trio of ballerinas work dutifully, dancing their dance with smiles
when the blood spurts and the screams start we leave to see the source material
candice owens and the white youtuber projected into little squares in a cold warehouse where their presence is threatening
going back in she is in labor now
moaning and singing and swaying
imp covers herself in blood
ballerinas dance without music smiles unfailing
settled in a smiling pile
the end is when imp leaves
but actually
i can’t really recall how it ended -
Responding to ligia lewis at CARA
facts are simply perception and something else that i can’t make out amidst their clapping
an intractable desire for back space in a room with no back room
i see you seeing me they say when we lock eyes and i’m glad but i really actually want to say it back and my role as watcher feels calcified as i become extremely perceptive to the micromovemwnts of my face
i want to speak but they get to speak now
i can’t take my eyes off of youbacking up to edges
allowing for ow ouch i’m stuck
slammed smashed squished up against
trying to be lines but the sweat is still therebaby pink walls smudged with hand prints and leg prints
can’t move a limb unless moved by another
contact often begins with a slap
moving kind of slapdash kind of falling kind of stumbling to get to the edges -
Responding (notes app edition) to Faye Driscoll’s Weathering at New York Live Arts


Images read:
faye driscoll
emily rose called it a pressure cooker
a boiling pot of humanness with its skin
folding mouth dripping lungs bellowing
spiral fall spiral rise
pushed along by stage managers
managing the stage of course
a snow globe of humanness with its heavy breathing treasure finding sucking spraying
turning turning turning
spray for us to keep us with them
spray for us because we are them
spinning and making a mess and stripping down and discarding and letting it go out
splintering out into pieces
weathering as in wearing down as in wears go down as in indents form as in evidence of movement as in desire lines as in people make peopled marks
wet spots
accidents
falling watches
falling
stage managers no longer managing
but director directing
until the end of the world
emily rose said i lost my breath when i saw the loss in his eyes -
Responding (notes app edition) to Julia Antinozzi at The Judson Church


Images read:
a painting
young small bodies shift in stutters
model bodies that don’t make mistakes until
they shake with the weight of time
clothes that sit just right
ah, there
cold slab of marble with warm tea, steam
take my picture i’ve made the frame
sumptuous clarity steeping in her precisely dewy curls center part
just a touch is all that’s needed
for symmetry can balance and unbalance in ways that will make you feel like a king
to spin with control
is the drone the tyranny of ballets influence on their toes?
spread and reaching,
knobby knuckled babies ‘hands to the sky
is that why the drone is beautiful and powerful and distant and close?
is that why i feel suspicious?
formalism, when it works, hits me like a cool breeze or cold water
delicious yes
but no
rather
the virtuousness of drinking a green smoothie
subtle sweetness infused with the sharp delectable taste of catching the teachers eye
swallow knowing you will be getting the A
the consequences are yet to be understood
in the meantime i eat clean
chase alignment
control the spin -
Responding (notes app edition) to Stina Nyberg’s Make Hay While the Sun Shines and Sweet at PAGEANT


Images read:
stina nyberg
may hay while the sun shines like a prelude
to the big story of everything
like remembering the future when
humans are symbols of themselves
humans are beautiful glitching action
figures find pleasure in repetition
mischievous concepts of selves
sweet
make hay while the sun shines makes more sense once the solo suite tells the big story of everything
of a jacketasaurus, fuming, shining
of the silly way humans ruined everything
of the silly way humans will leave this earth,
finally
of the fun we had here –
try to fly, trying to dance, trying to show our moms how high we can jump, trying to make eye contact, trying to exorcise demons, trying to slow down
the big story is remembered, of course
remembered into the past and into the inevitable ends that will let this place breathe again
welcoming ends -
Responding (notes app edition) to Audre Wirtanen , jaamil olawale kosoko, and Levi Gonzalez at The Judson Church



Images read:
audre
tell the story with frankness
of the devastatingly fucked up world
this world where glitter and cake adorn slow violence that keeps us weary
talking shit like it’s her job like her life depends on it like our lives depend on it
because how else will we realized the magic trick that turns red to green and buries alarms under the plush covers
body encased in sparkling air
body swimming in puns that lighten the despair
face smashed into lumps of sweetness
frosting salted with tears
it’s hard to breathe through a thick treatjaamil
opulence reigns
effigy remains
ring light portends a reading for the fans
video feed makes the fans
pop star from afar makes an appearance for the fans
a sermon spectacle delivered as
conversation or
let me just read this to you
until we’re all saying amen
until they are shining, even once derobed,
placing the fringed gloves and the
shimmering shift into the arms of a man in a suitlevi
hey hey hey hey i see you
a child’s game of tag with voice
an improv class’ game of contact with the
hesitation and sludge of men knowing men
is that what an old friendship among men looks like? pushing and pulling and reaching for somewhere to hold and saying sorry with a hand and aiming for a sturdy spot to lean on?
later we’re alone with our skin
playing examining experimenting with the soft flesh that men pretend they don’t have
pink flushes the smooth
pink betrays the heat, the liveness of his parts he manipulates like clay
we’ll get dressed again after, slowly
and look at each other again -
Responding (notes app edition) to Tere O’Connors Rivulets


Image reads:
satisfying like drinking from a water fountain
not all at once but also all at once
unison can be hydrating
butterfly sweat stains and
bodies in a rorsharch test
i guess i like a ballet formation
i guess i like a ballet formation when i can unfocus my eyes and just get blurs off
green and flat hands and body vibratto
bodies in teres image teres eye’s making
but less eerily thin than i remember the ballet formation
bodies i recognize executing preciselyi’m surprised they didn’t laugh more
because pattering little hands in unison is just funny
it tickles
it is choreographing serendipity
it is choreographing a giggle
in all seriousness choreographing a chorus of giggles and patty cake
tastes like the lick of water -
Responding (notes app edition) to Christopher “Unpezverde” Nuñez’s The Circle or Prophetic Dream

Image reads:
technicolor billowed circles
bodies bare and light ready
bodies cloaked in relics in masks in tiny housesthe twang of a jawbone being struck
produces a twitch in my body
a spasm like the memory of bonethe slow fade the slow cresting wave
the full full full silence in the dark
oh how i love the moment before applause starts
where we sit receiving the prophetic dream together